but i know they wont let me in because i havnt planned a suicide again….

I’M SORRY i feel so horrible, i hate this, ive been doing the same thing for years, i think im really actually going full fledge insane…i cant stop myself from twitching and my hands wont stop shaking ever anymore, im having full fledged insomnia…i keep seeing this weird black dog without a fucking head everywere i go, idk i see him every other morning so im just thinking its bc im tired…im hoping, i just i need help, i dont think i can do this anymore…i cant bring any more burden onto my family, they cant be embarressed about me again…i’ve cut and its not helping, i feel light headed, it wont stop bleeding and all i can think of is  I WANT TO DIE